Noisy Mind

Noisy Mind

Kathy shared with me an exercise she did when things just become too much. This needs to just let go of things and just write things out that plague your mind. I think I need that exercise right now.

------- 5:04 PM
My mind is a mess. There is just a lot of unnecessary noise flowing through my mind. I feel so restless that I can’t even stay at home where it is relaxing – Olympic games have been interesting even if it is Athletics. I mean, it is a friggin’ holiday – I do not have to think of anything at all! But no! I had to go to Trinoma because I feel that I am being choked at home – I think it’s the start of the holiday blues (there is a time in the year when I just go reflective, depressed). Things are becoming too overwhelming for me already, and the unfortunate thing is that I do not know why I feel this way. I can’t really pick any particular area of my life right now that will trigger this. I think all in all, life has been pretty nice to me on the outside. Maybe I just do not feel appreciate that today.

I really don’t know.

I felt so alone in the world. It is making my head hurt so much. I want to drown the noise with something. Anything will do! Maybe that’s why I want to escape. I want to just leave and get out of all the things and find a nice quiet place. The noise that I hear is something that I only hear. No one can understand because it is all in my head. This is just all me. This is just all in my head. It will clear up eventually, but at this moment, it is just unreasonable and plain unfair. Why me? Why can’t things be rosy? Why does it have to be shitty. Why?

There are so many things I want answered. There are so many things that I want. Period. And, the fact that I do not meet thing makes me feel unhappy. I am not happy. I know I can be better. I know this is not it. There has to be more.

5:09 PM -------

Coffee Bean@Trinoma

I was very productive today. Accomplished a lot with all the things that have been piling up in me Inbox. As usual, I spent it in Coffee Bean in Trinoma. I don't know what's with the place but here, I can concentrate and do all the things I yearn to do without feeling the pull of procrastination.

I remember months ago, I was here every week where I studied for my certification. I was able to do so many things then and it holds true until now. I love it here. For sure, I will frequently go here especially when things need to be done.

Missed a Moment?

I have been hearing AMAZING things about the 2008 Beijing Olympics opening celebration yesterday, 08-08-08. I missed this much-talked about extravaganza and just opted to sleep because I was really, really tired.

I can not find any available video in the internet. I wanna see this 3 hours. Help?

If not, did I just miss a quarter of my life because I missed last night's opening?

Too much?

It's 2:37AM and I realized that I have been spending too much for the past months. I did some major purchases and it really surprised me how I could easily buy things now compared to my hikahos days. August should be relatively cheaper and that should be the trend I need to work on until December when it is inevitably expensive.

And, why am I blogging at 2:40AM? I slept at 7PM and woke up at 12. I am going to sleep again. Tomorrow (or later), I go to Petron for whole day meetings. Lovely!